Friday, December 9, 2011

A Fertile Infertile

I wish Sunday (and subsequently Tuesday) would hurry up.  This whole waiting thing is for the birds.  I'm scared to death and need to know something, anything.

It's not that I'm afraid of a negative test.  I can deal with that.  I'm terrified of being pregnant, and then not being pregnant.  During all of our fertility cycles, we've never had trouble getting pregnant- it's staying that way that's hard for me.   So many things are different now- I've added drugs, changed meds and tested our babies so that we have the best possible chance for the only positive outcome that counts... a healthy baby in the Pierce house.  So why am I so completely and utterly worried and why the heck does this have to be so hard? 

6 comments:

  1. Sending you hugs and lots of good wishes, and lots of distraction!!

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  2. Sweets, you are worried because that is what Mother's do. You have been working so hard and praying and doing everything you can, of course you are worried. Try to keep some perspective and try to do something that distracts you, a movie, shopping, what ever you can. And remember to breath.....sending you positive thoughts.
    MEredith

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  3. Hang in there! I totally get how scary a positive result is! Thinking of you!

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  4. I'm sending you all kinds of good vibes right now. Take time this weekend to do something nice for yourself!

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  5. Staying pregnant is my biggest fear too. This whole process is just a series of difficult milestones. First you need eggs, then they must fertilize, then make it to day 5, then be chromosomally normal, then acheive a positive pregnancy test then 1, 2, maybe 3 betas, then an ultrasound, then another, then a scan... blah blah blah. I know you've struggled staying pregnant in the past. I wish there was something I could say to help ease your worry. I am so envious of the oblivious women who get to truly enjoy their pregnancies.

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  6. The number of steps involved to finally getting to the end goal is scary. I hope so much that this is the one.

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